In this spot in time we are not meant to be. we both scared the shit out of each other. we both knew how perfect we were together and it automatically scared us away. it scared you because you know that you need to be in a better state of mind to be with me. Because you know that if you don’t get your shit together you could ruin the best thing you almost had. what scares the shit out of me is that you will be traveling across the world with people who care about you, but a girl who could win you over. A girl who could take you from me just as He did. Even though you show your lack of interest in her, it scares the shit out of me that you will be experiencing a life adventure without me. I hate that you will be creating memories with someone else. It scares the shit out of me knowing you and i were “perfect” for each other and will always be “perfect” for each other. I almost dread you coming back because there is that possibility of you coming back to tell me you fell for her. That those experiences with her made you loose me. Made you forget about everything we created and everything we planned to create. You scare the living shit out of me. You terrify me. You make my skin crawl with every ounce of uncomfortable. YOU MAKE ME go insane.